Note(s) to Self:
1) You can’t run from emotion.
Without facing emotions, especially the negative ones we attempt to ignore, we can’t really make any progress. Facing them hurts, but it’s healthy. I’ve lived a lot of my life turning a blind eye to things I am too scared to face, consequently letting them sit in the corners of my mind and collect dust. They sit there untouched, and the cobwebs build up to a point where I’m not quite sure how to sweep them away. The best route is to avoid the clean-up process entirely and face things head on as they come.
2) Relinquish control.
It is altogether too, too much effort trying to keep it all together all the time. It’s exhausting, really. I’ve never been a type-A kind of person, but having so much to do here makes me a little overwhelmed at times. Letting go is important, for the sake of mental health more than anything else. It’s impossible to dictate the way everything in your life will play out, so there’s really no use in trying. Going with the flow isn’t just simpler; it’s more rewarding.
3) Allow yourself to be inspired.
I find myself so consumed in my hectic schedule everyday, focusing primarily on what needs to get done and what meeting I have later and what homework needs to be finished and what emails need to be sent. I walk down city streets with my mind full of, “what next?” instead of taking it all in. Enough of that. Everything is an inspiration—the way raindrops on railings hang out for a bit after a storm, the sound heels make as they click on the pavement, the way the skyline turns into a sunset. It’s all a matter of taking notice.
4) Never underestimate the power of a laugh.
Ever. Laughter changes everything.
14 Nov 2013 @ 11:26PM /
Hey Aneena! I know you go to BU and that's one of my top schools right now (tied with Boston College, actually), so I was just wondering if you could answer some questions about it! I'm just worried about the size and it feeling impersonal, so do you ever get that impression? Do you feel like it lacks any real sense of community? Do you mind not having a traditional campus? Are the dorms and bathrooms tolerable? Are you happy with your choice?
HI! I love this. Obviously, I’m biased because BU and BC are rivals, but I will say that BC is absolutely beautiful, so if you’re going for the traditional campus thing, that could be a good fit for you. I was worried about the impersonal thing, too, actually, but I have been so pleasantly surprised. The timing of this question is great, because today, as I was walking down Comm Ave to my soc class, six different people went, “Hey Aneena!” as I walked by. It was a little surreal, actually. There are a ton of kids here, but after a while you start seeing familiar faces everywhere and it feels so much smaller and tight-knit than you’d expect. Obviously I’m going to graduate without meeting a good number of kids in my grade, but I love that there are always new people to meet here. There are also a ton of events that bring people together (most notably, the hockey games), so I never really feel like BU isn’t a community. So, no, I don’t mind the lack of a traditional campus or traditional college experience at all! I thought I would, but this experience is unlike any other and I wouldn’t trade it for the world. It is so amazing to have the city at my fingertips.
…… the dorms, though. Personally, I’ve done a lot of travelling, so these living conditions are not half as bad as I know they could be, but they’re not phenomenal. It really depends on where you live—most freshmen live in Warren Towers or in West. Both are great for meeting people and Warren is super close to all of my classes, but there are some bugs and stuff that you have to put up with. The bathrooms also aren’t great, but you get used to it. The way I see it is that it’s all just a part of the freshman experience.
On the bright side, you have a whole new appreciation for taking showers without flip flops when you visit home.
I’m very, very happy with my choice, though. I didn’t know if I would be when I chose it, but now, I wouldn’t trade the past two months for anything.
If you want more info, feel free to message me and I’m more than happy to answer any questions! I felt like I went into my freshman year knowing literally nothing, so I’m happy to help.
P.S. The gym is amazing. And the dining hall food is delicious.
21 Oct 2013 @ 04:29PM /
(Prefacing this with a disclaimer that that second to last picture is not a selfie of me with an awkwardly serious face. I just happened to get my nose pierced on a whim one weekend and my girl Jackie was lovely enough to take a pic while we were studying outside. Yep, k. Proceeding.)
I LOVE COLLEGE. (Minus the chemistry.)
Biggest shout out ever to all of you for still following me, because I’d probably give myself a 5 on an “interesting life” scale and I haven’t updated in LITERALLY OVER A MONTH. It’s been so so busy and I guess blogging just went on the backburner for a little while. Whoooops.
To say a lot has happened since I last updated would be the biggest understatement of the century. (And that was probably the biggest overstatement I’ve ever made. But still.)
The only huge thing that happened before college (worth mentioning) would be meeting Passenger, which means nothing to 90% of the population, but I love him, so I’m mentioning it anyway. He told me I had a lovely name, so I can die happy. His autographed poster and that picture of us is up on my cork board here in my dorm room. Ugh, so obsessed with his music. And him. He’s funny.
BUT YEP OKAY SO COLLEGE. I love it. Granted, it took me a while to settle in and I’m still finding my groove in terms of balancing everything, but things are getting easier with time. Between a premed curriculum and homework and the gym and extracurriculars and friends, time management is probably the biggest challenge. Regardless of my sky high stress levels, though, I’m so incredibly happy. I made it into BU Student Government (AHHH) and I’m currently pledging a co-ed service fraternity, Alpha Phi Omega; even though they’re incredibly time consuming, I’m so glad I joined both. The people are incredible and passionate and kind and I really, really missed making a difference. Being responsible for change is a very cool thing.
In other news, I’m notorious on my floor for always having singles lying everywhere in my room (it just happens when you’re too lazy to put change back in your wallet, okay), and it just so happens that they call me Brown Sugar from time to time, so I’m just sitting here counting the minutes until my RA pulls me aside and tells me that I should stop stripping on the side.
At this point, I have no idea what free time is like anymore except on Saturday nights, but it doesn’t even matter because I’m lucky. Lucky, lucky, lucky. I have people who make me smile and who tuck me into bed on rough nights and who love me enough to restrain themselves from punching me when I correct their grammar and who make me laugh until I cry. Time is flying faster than I can wrap my mind around (I say that every time I post), so I’m doing my best to love the late nights and busy schedules as much as I hate the sleep deprivation. It’s all only just begun, but I’m so excited to see what the next four years have in store (and to be done with chemistry).
07 Oct 2013 @ 01:38PM /
Time is flying so, so fast! The countdown is down to 20 days, and as soon as that counter hits zero, it’s goodbye hometown, hello, college.
I went to my first Red Sox game last week because my brother was singing the national anthem at Fenway park as part of his summer performing arts program. No big deal.
The singing was so, so adorable and they did a phenomenal job. I was smiling the whole time. Those kids will never forget that moment.
We were watching from the bleachers so between not really being able to see much and not entirely understanding the rules, I spent a good 90% of the time on my phone, cheering only when everyone else did in true bandwagon fan fashion.
I left thinking that’d be my only Red Sox game for quite a while until a few days later when my dad randomly presented me with two tickets. (Apparently he saved a man’s life and the man wanted him to have the tickets because he happened to be a season ticket holder. Yep, also totally no big deal…)
So I ended up going to another game (with a friend who also has no knowledge of baseball) and surprisingly loved it! We were literally 10 feet away from the field and could see the players’ expressions so clearly. It was so, so much fun and after figuring out what exactly constituted a strike, we were so engaged the whole time. There was still a good amount of confusion on our parts, but we had the time of our lives.
Other than that, the only really big thing that has happened worth blogging about would be Aveen’s 15th birthday! We celebrated with a nice dinner and dessert and my, oh my, I love these family pictures. Wish Dad was in them! He was away in Ireland for a golfing trip with his other doctor buddies (again, no big deal…….) so he missed it, but it just gives us an excuse to celebrate again, so no complaints. I’m really going to miss those three.
The dorm shopping has commenced and some of my friends leave in about a week and eep, it’s all becoming very, very real, very, very quickly.
Also, fall fashion is so close and between that and getting ready for college I’m about to explode with excitement. So many amazing things are in store. (In terms of the future and in terms of all of the amazing fall clothing that is LITERALLY in stores now.)
05 Aug 2013 @ 07:55PM /
—Charles “Tremendous” Jones, Life is Tremendous
18 Jul 2013 @ 06:56PM /
"And so with the sunshine and the great bursts of leaves growing on the trees, just as things grow in fast movies, I had that familiar conviction that life was beginning over again with the summer." - The Great Gatsby
I’m listening to the Great Gatsby audiobook at the moment (because it’s free on Spotify) and that line struck me. That really is what summer has felt like—a beginning of some sort. This whole carefree thing is something I could get used to. I don’t know if there has been a single week of summer that has hasn’t lived up to my highest expectations; there have been so many firsts, so many laughs, so many memories made. (I pretty much say that every time I post, but seriously, it’s been perfect.)
This past week was one of the most memorable. Emily, my friend from Costa Rica, flew up to visit me for a week. We were volunteers in street shows in Boston, screamed on roller coasters at Six Flags, made s’mores and swapped stories around a bonfire, jumped the quarries in town, and had amazing girl talks that lasted until at least 3am every morning. I consider the town I live in pretty boring, so when she said she had one of the best weeks of her life, I was so, so pleasantly surprised. I’ll probably never stop patting myself on the back for that one.
Another week down. An amazing one, but one gone nonetheless. It’s crazy how quickly this summer is flying. It’s been the best summer of my life already, but the dreaded goodbyes are looming on the horizon. Just 40 days left in this town… It’s impossible to wrap my mind around that fact.
Yesterday, we went out for a family dinner, and Dad toasted to me and the little time I have left. I got a little teary, but I’ve never been more confident in the fact that they’ll all be just fine without me. The complicated family dynamic is no longer something I have to worry about. Plus, Aveen is slowly discovering a passion in the performing arts, so I couldn’t be happier. We’re all at wonderful points in our lives, and so ready for another chapter.
Everything is falling into place.
16 Jul 2013 @ 01:52PM /
—Chelsis Porter (via mermaidsongs
(Source: simply-quotes, via 20--something)
08 Jul 2013 @ 03:32PM /
Damn. Okay, here we go.
34. A few times, actually. But once was a car accident. It was QUITE the wake up call. I literally was seconds away from death.
35. I do! I was just talking about this yesterday with one of my closest friends. I’m a firm believer in the fact that the universe works in strange ways, but that ultimately, everything happens for a reason. In terms of karma, I definitely believe that what goes around comes around. That’s not to say that bad things don’t happen to good people… More so that in the end, it all somehow balances out.
39. Not quite yet!
43. So many people, but if I had to single one person out, I’d probably say Oprah Winfrey. That woman has overcome so much and has touched countless lives. She’s accomplished more in her one lifetime than people could hope to accomplish in fifty lifetimes, and her legacy is going to live on for a long, long time.
50. First of all, *YOU’RE. I’m a grammar nazi and proud of it. As for the question, though, the answer is definitely a resounding no. When I was little, I left my favorite little Hercules purse with a $20 bill in it on a bench while I went to go find my mom in a store (because I was dumb) and when I came out of the store, it was gone. I cried for hours… Obviously this situation is on a larger scale but yeah, I could never do that to anyone. I’d probably stand and wait there for a while to make sure no one else took it if I had the time.
61. Hm. It depends on how much longer… If I was going to die at 30 after living a life of luxury, no. But if it was a difference of maybe 10 years, probably the wealth, as shallow as that sounds. Sure, money doesn’t buy happiness, but I wouldn’t complain about having financial security and having the ability to pay for experiences that make memories and result in happiness.
08 Jul 2013 @ 02:21PM /
Wasn’t expecting to wake up to any, but it was a pleasant surprise—thanks girl! Haha these are surprisingly fun.
18. I’m obsessed with any and all romantic comedies, but my favorite movie is probably “Marry Me”. It’s a Lifetime movie, and arguably the cutest and most romantic thing ever.
23. 11—Canada, Bermuda, Aruba, India, Switzerland, Austria, Italy, Costa Rica, South Africa, Germany, and France. I love, love, love travelling.
33. Five facts? Hm.
- Whenever I buy popcorn at the movies, I almost always buy m&ms, too, because those two combined are the most delicious snack ever. I think I picked up that habit from the movie “First Daughter”.
- Cuddling is one of my top five favorite things in the world.
- I really, really dislike all carbonated beverages. Soda, beer, seltzer water, all of it. Ick.
- British accents make me melt, but that probably applies to almost every girl ever.
- I need to have my nails painted at all times. Without polish on them, I literally feel naked.
56. This might sound like a repeat, but the first character who comes to mind is Rae in “Marry Me”. She’s a hopeless romantic who just wants the fairytale, which is me in a nutshell.
08 Jul 2013 @ 01:57PM /